I really don't know where else to turn. I was really excited when I started the Fund Anything site. I was very excited when a couple people chose to donate but now it has fallen short of my expectations. Delving into the madness which is my mind has been scary. I have a lot on my plate and I question a lot of things that have happened to me recently. I was raised by a decent family. They are on a limited and fixed income. I have basically no income at all. I worked hard and always tried to do the right things in life...including helping those in need. I was taught if you do good things, then good things will come your way. It disappoints me when I look through some of the Fund Anything and Fund Anything sites to see people raising money for hobbies and sometimes pure nonsensical things that really don't matter. I have a lot of pride in who I am and it is difficult for me to lay things on the line and go the public to ask for help. It is really frustrating fig
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Was really lucky to be in an awesome cookout yesterday. Burgers and brats and it was really delightful. Off to a new doctor today who I hope has some new answers. Was feeling okay but the storms that are coming in are giving me some serious issues. Hope everyone enjoyed the holiday weekend and please don't forget our Vet's. God bless them all. I will be writing more when I get back from the doctor. Have a great day!
Pretty excited that I get to see my new PCP tomorrow and get a fresh look at my issues. I hope he can do something more for me. I hate to leave my last doctor; I really did like him. His incompetent staff and their treatment of me made me move on. I hope everyone enjoys their Memorial Day celebrations. God bless our Vet's for all they have done to ensure we live a free life. Some gave all; all gave some.
Not sure why but my ankles are my primary complaint now. Having issues with balance and stabbing pains in them. Left hip is trouble as well. Going to see the doctor this coming Tuesday and I hope he has some answers for me. I've been hearing a lot of different cracks in my back and my neck with no particular pattern. All in all my back feels a lot better. Any day above ground is a good day.
I am really glad this second infusion of Remicaid went well. I was concerned what might happen. If you take a look at the known side effects it will scare the hell out of you. Heart Failure was my primary concern. My doctor told me to avoid public places as something as simple as the common cold could be fatal if I contract it. Remicaid basically deletes my immune system. In fact, I am my own worst enemy. My immune system is attacking my joints and organs. My biggest fear is that my brain will be effected. If the Remicaid doesn't kill me first. I must say, living with this gives you an entirely different perspective on your surroundings and life in general. You come to know what is important and who actually gives a damn about you. I must admit, I feel better in a lot of ways. I don't have the vocabulary to put the feelings that I have about it into writing. It just makes you feel weird. Perception is everything as they say and I can't put my finger on it b
I had my second infusion of remicaid today and all went well. I was pretty worried, especially since I had such a bad reaction last time. Feeling a lot better and I hope that trend continues. It is a bright, sunny day today. Any day above ground is a good day if you ask me. The nurses are awesome and really helpful. I have to go back in six weeks for treatment number three, then I will be on a regular eight week schedule. I am pretty tired and I think I will get some sleep. Thanks for reading and I hope you won't be too shy. Give me a +1 or leave a comment!
Really off to a good start for the Fund Anything campaign. It is really cool that so many people are pitching in. I take my second infusion treatment tomorrow and I'm going to be honest; I'm pretty nervous. It is kind of scary knowing that something you are going to put into your body will help you but at the same time it could kill you. I used to think I wasn't scared of anything...but I'm not so sure as I get older. All I know is that this is not where I envisioned my life going. There is nothing that can be done about it and you have to take the hand you are dealt. As my good friend Forrest Gump once said, "Life is like a box of chocolates...you never know what you're gonna get."
I'm really excited about being on Fund Anything. I have a good feeling about it...especially when I see someone asking for $100,000 dollars to cut a studio album (she has $25,000 so far) and I am just seeking enough money to get by. It was really hard for me to do but I think I did the right thing. What is wrong with asking for help when you need it? I am looking at 6 months to a year more to get my SSI decision and then another two years on top of that to get housing assistance. I found a site that is selling address' to the very wealthy. Wow; what a way to make a living. I know I have a lot of pride in who I am and this is not something I ever envisioned doing. It is really my last resort and it is what it is. With or without it I know I will make it. Just makes life a lot easier when you have the things you need to move on. I try not to dwell on it too much. I know from seeing other people in the doctor office with other illnesses far worse than mine that it
I think I have had enough Battlefield 4 for a while and I will be getting back into Neverwinter. I had a great broadcast last night. I have got a few of my old viewers back and it feels great! I slept pretty much the entire day away. I am happy the warm temperatures have returned as Winter was long and really cold. I am glad to see so many people have been stopping by the blog. Also glad to see my good friend Startled Sheep finally followed the stream on Twitch. Not sure what I'm going to get into on today's broadcast but I'm thinking I will start with Neverwinter. Don't be too shy to comment on the blog people and I would like to thank everyone who has been over to Top Streamers to vote for my stream. It really helps me out and it means a lot to me! Have a great day!
Really looking forward to today's broadcast! Took care of the #Mothersday formalities yesterday. I am thinking about starting the Minecraft world for Xbox One back up and getting the old engineers back on with me. We are planning to create the Lord of the Rings Mines of Morrior. Basically the plan is to mine an entire map, from edge to edge, from level Y40 to bedrock. We have it about 15% done. Everyone got burned out and we just had too many people crying on the server. Some regulars got butt hurt and tried to start their own server and steal away regulars from Atlas Server. The Yanks & Brits #Neverwinter guild is doing well. We have about a dozen members and it continues to grow. If you play a lot and are looking for an active guild, one that works together as a team, then our guild is for you! It is a great day to be alive and it is nice to be looking at the green side of the grass (as opposed to the brown side). Thanks for reading and I appreciate anyone who
Starting The Guild So the guild is getting going. I am glad I have fatty and Ben on board to help out. I have been gaming with them a longtime. You can post and check out the blog by clicking HERE I had a good stream today (10 viewers at the high point) and it was a lot of fun. It was almost 16 hours total streaming today. Want to send a shout out and big thank you to my regulars; Swamp Booger, Truckinyourma and Poinstarz. Hoping to get a long day in tomorrow and possibly get into the big dungeon. I am tired of being kicked because no one wants to play with a designated cleric. Doing well on the Top Streamers list as well. Already second in the world for Neverwinter streamers that are registered there and only need 20 more votes to take first place! That would be nice. I think the top streamers website will drive more viewers to my channel. I definitely need to get some more popular games on the stream to attract more live viewers. For those of you who wan
It is going to be a busy weekend for me. I'm still loving #XBNeverwinter and plan to stream it a lot this weekend. Loving my new Top Streamers web badge and I have been fortunate enough to get some votes. Please don't forget, you can (and should) vote everyday for me. I am currently #4 for +NeverwinterGame broadcasters in the world! I can't thank you guys enough. I have had a total of $700 in donations from fans since last December! I am glad to see some people care enough to support me with donations. It has been over a month since I had a donation and I'm not pressed. If you know someone in a position to donate please send them my way! Don't be afraid to +1 some of my posts! Thanks for reading/watching and have a great day!
Looking forward to tonight's broadcast. I have been updating a few things. Tweaking my Twitch page here and there and gearing up for the future. I'm really excited about having regular viewers again and I'm looking forward to chatting with you guys tonight. It takes a lot to keep a stream going but I enjoy it. Make sure you guys click on the yellow vote button on my Twitch channel. I am trying to get up in the rankings on the streamer list and it will help me get new viewers. Have an awesome day and don't be afraid to hit that plus one button either! Peace!
I've been working on dungeons now that I have the DC up to level 60. It has been a lot of fun. I know this game is going to catch on...sooner or later. I can't believe it is free to play. I am going to post, in detail my set up and I really like it. I have picked up some serious enchantments and refined some of my stones. I only need to get 300 more points to have access to Tier II dungeons. Make sure you tune and and catch all of the action!
Here We Go Again Getting ready to finish of my DC in Neverwinter all the way to level 60. He is a Boss and I am looking forward to today's broadcast. I have a few things on the burner to deal with this week: New Overlay I want to get a new overlay for my channel New Graphic Going to get a new graphic online for when my channel is offline lol Yanks & Brits Guild building the guild up for the next month or so T-Shirt going to have a new graphic and new shirt available Minecraft is not over! I still have the world (I even keep it online when I am AFC) and we still have big plans for it! Do me a favor if you are reading this and share it on facebook, +1 me for google and just help me out. You don't have to have money to support the stream. Get your butt in here for every broadcast and spread the word about the broadcast. Tell your friends at work or school. When you do watch my broadcast...do me a favor; it is free and really easy to do: Just chat.
Man oh man what a crazy weekend it has been. I'm still not well and I really don't know how to put it into words. I will just say I am uncomfortable and I will be glad when I can get back to normal. I wanted to broadcast longer today but I'm just not up to it. 14 hours will have to be enough. Didn't make it to level 60 either with the good ol' Devoted Cleric. I did, however, have a good time with some of my longtime friends on the XBox One. D & D Neverwinter is an amazing game and it has been a lot of fun building up my Boss DC. She really is boss as well. I mean, I was struggling with the character I made myself. I have a great balance of power and the ability to heal on the battlefield. I really enjoy this game. Those of you reading this I hope you will say a little prayer for me and keep me in your thoughts. I really appreciate the viewers who are chatting with me and keep coming back for more. Keeping my stream going is a full time situation a
Advanced Dungeons & Dragons: Neverwinter for Xbox One is an amazing game. I am pretty sure I'm hooked! I had a 16 hour broadcast the day before yesterday and I could have kept right on going. As most of you know...Eddie Mancuso is old. As a matter of fact I'm so old that I remember when the original home console, more commonly known as pong came out. I played it a lot. Then Atari 2600, the Atari 5200, Intellivision, Colecovision, Sega Genesis, Super Nintendo...finally Xbox 360 and now Xbox One. What a difference it is...and I'm loving it. I wasted a lot of days and nights playing D & D with paper, a lot of imagination and dice. I salute Arc Games even though the interface needs a lot of work and it seems some of the servers are a bit laggy/glitchy. All in all it is very playable and I think it is very smart of them to make it a free to play and with astral diamonds...free to win kind of game. Make sure you check out the right sidebar and follow me everyw